idon’t know if anyone else has gone through this experience, but since having clansee i’ve turned into a sobbing mess!!  when i was a kid i used to cry in movies at the drop of a hat (i wasn’t allowed to watch ET until i was about 7 as i just got too upset  - and i really did!).  benji was also out of the question and the one with the labrodore that gets rabies (ol’ yella?), i practically needed a sedative!!  but then as i ‘ve gotten older the waterworks have stopped - up until now!  i thought during my pregnancy the small outbursts when i saw a sad story on the news it was just the crazy amounts of hormones, but now i’m not so sure .  .  . i’d just recently started watching ‘love my way’ on dvd and was really enjoying it, until  i got to a certain episode and well, if you’ve seen it you’ll understand what i’m talking about - i haven’t been able to watch anymore - traumatised!!  ari came home to a sobbing mess on the couch.  i even had outbursts of anger at the writers!

another thing that’s changed is my angsty will power - such as ooh, i don’t know, watching poxie presenters on a sunny morning show!  since being pregnant and waking at around 4am and watching american morning programs and then tuning into kochie and mel on sunrise, i’ve been feeling a bit old and boring of late.  ari and i were talking about it the other day saying,"yeah, it’s the one thing that makes me feel old".  i wonder why this is?  it’s not like we’re the only (almost 30 somethings!!) that watch this show.  many funky people we know tune in for that cereal and coffee  watching session every day.  maybey i’m just being paranoid?  i’ve had one of those exhausted (crazy mum) weeks where i think everyday is turining into one big day.  i cut myself some slack though, cause my waking hour for the past 1and a half years has been around 4:30-5!  with wee clansee waking between 4:30 and 5:30 and me being an insomniac pregnanct potato!  ari and i tried to share the early waking, but he has type 1 diabetes (really badly) and really needs that extra 2hrs sleep - so crazy mumma is in that groundhog mode.

anyway, if these are the only fogie things i can think i’m doing (besides pushing a pram i have a complex about, but i think that’s more to do with me wanting to carry clansee everywhere but now he’s too heavy), things musn’t be too bad hey?

well, i’ve decided to stard my baby clothes at the byron bay and bangalow markets and on this website - so i will create a page soon to let you see my stuff.  i’ll also have my website together shortly.

xx amy